Four years ago, I quit my 9-5 corporate job as a Health and Safety Advisor in the marine oil & gas industry to start my own Health and Safety consulting business. With two small children at home, consulting helped me find balance between my professional life and my role as a mother. As the kids got older however, my career aspirations grew and I became more immersed in my work. I scored two significant contracts with large oil and gas majors, which was a dream come true from a career perspective. I’d worked hard to get to where I was, and it had finally paid off.
Everything on the outside looked great: nice house, nice car, great career, expensive clothes…but my soul felt like it was being sucked dry. I would get home at the end of the day and just want to have a big drink to forget about it all. I was finally where I’d wanted to be my whole career, but was left with the distinct feeling of; This is it? This is what I worked so hard for? This is what I wanted? Isn’t there more to life, than this?
I chastised myself for having these thoughts and felt ungrateful for my beautiful life. I had so much – much more than many people would ever have, who was I to be wanting more? How could I be so ungrateful for wanting more than what I already had? I pushed my feelings aside, burying them deeper and deeper into the recesses of my body, hoping that if I hid them, that I might not ever be able to feel them.
As the months went by, I began to resent my work, but I didn’t know how to get out of the life I had worked so hard to build for myself. It wasn’t like I could just stop working! I had a family, we had a house! I wasn’t a kid anymore and I couldn’t just run away from my life.
A friend of mine suggested I meet with Spiritual Coach and Hay House author Anne Bérubé (www.anneberube.com). At first I resisted, what could she do for me? I knew I needed a change, but I was so paralyzed by the immensity of changing that I couldn’t see how someone else would even know where to begin. If I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life, how would she?
At our first meeting over coffee, I poured my heart out to her. She listened and there was something about her presence that made me feel heard on a level I hadn’t experienced before. It went deeper than the exchange of words and her energy was contagious. A couple weeks later, during our first formal session she gently guided me to a place within myself that I’d forgotten even existed. She guided me back to myself, to my source, to ME. She helped me remember who I was and who I am.
Since then, I haven’t looked back. In addition to working one-on-one with Anne, I’ve attended her signature retreat The Happy Sessions (www.anneberube.com/the-happy-sessions-retreat/), completed the Psychology of the Chakras intensive training with Anodea Judith & Selene Vega (www.SacredCenters.com), completed Manifest Your Soul’s Purpose (Wayne Dyer), studied leadership, coaching & behaviour change, and found my soul voice through Renée Hartleib (www.reneehartleib.ca).
I blamed others for my own unhappiness for a long time. It wasn’t until I started to look inside myself that I realized that I’m the only one who can bring meaning and change (if necessary) to my life. Change truly does begin within, and the more deeply connected you are with yourself, the more you’ll be able to craft and manifest the life you crave.
I’m super excited to announce that I’m currently working towards certification as an AutoPoetic Facilitator with Spiritual Coach & mentor Anne Bérubé. I’ve also been studying with the WELs System Institute, including Neuro-Linguistic Programming in a WELs context, Decloaking and Living Authentically, Code Model Coaching, Boundless LeaderSelf; and I’m enrolled in Colette Baron-Reid’s Oracle School Personal Mastery program.
As part of all of this, I recently made the leap and have started to coach and facilitate Soul Sessions with individuals and groups in the Halifax Area. Through gentle conversation, conscious breathing, and awareness of the body’s wisdom and truth, we reconnect with ourselves and our soul’s purpose. When we do this type of work, wounds of the past are healed and our natural truths begin to announce themselves. For me, my innate intuition has grown exponentially and I’ve come to accept that my connection to Spirit (universe, life force energy) is a gift.
If any of this resonates with you and you feel a rumble inside your own body, I invite you to join me on this journey. Get in touch if you’d like to work with me one-on-one, for free!